Archive | July, 2012

Inspirational Quotes and Verses

24 Jul

Bible Verses and Christian Quotes

“But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.”Matthew 6:33

Christian Quotes

“Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.” Proverbs 3:5-6

Christian Quotes

“What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them.” Mark 11:2

Christian Quotes

“But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31

Christian Quotes

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11

Christian Quotes

Other Quotes that may be Applied to Infertility

“Courage is going from failure to failure without losing enthusiasm.” Winston Churchill

“I may not be there yet, but I am closer than I was yesterday.”

“You can’t have a testimony without a test!”

“The brick walls are not there to keep us out, the brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something. They’re there to stop the people who don’t want it badly enough.” Randy Pausch

“We must accept finite disappointment, but we must never lose infinite hope.” Martin Luther King Jr

Infertility in the Bible

20 Jul

All though it often feels like I am alone in my grief and that no one understands how I feel, the Bible shows me that I am not the first one to suffer the heart-wrenching defeat of infertility. Scripture tells of so many brave women who were healed by God of their infertility and blessed with children by His grace. He performed miracles in their time and He performs them now. If you think God can’t give you a child, then I suggest you read your Bible and see that HE CAN!

My favorite Bible stories about infertility are the stories of Rachel and of Hannah, you can also read about Sarah, Rebecca, Elizabeth and  countless others.

Rachel – You can read about Rachel in Genesis 29-30

“And when the Lord saw that Leah was hated, he opened her womb: but Rachel was barren… and when Rachel saw that she bare Jacob no children, Rachel envied her sister; and said unto Jacob, Give me children, or else I die.. and God remembered Rachel, and God hearkened to her, and opened her womb… and she conceived, and bare a son; and said, God hath taken away my reproach.” Genesis 29-30

I love Rachel’s story because it is so intensely relate-able (at least it is for me). Rachel’s story is a perfect example of how ugly infertility can be. She suffered the bitter sting of envy as she witnessed her own sister blessing Jacob with son after son while her womb remained empty. I bet she felt so small, so insignificant. I imagine that she continuously compared herself to Leah, wondering  what she had done so wrong (or perhaps what Leah had done that was so right) that Leah received God’s blessing while she suffered.Rachel and I are not so different in that respect. When I learn of a friend or family member’s pregnancy I become intensely jealous and I often wonder if God loves them more than me (He doesn’t by the way, but it is a legitimate thought). Rachel said “give me children, or else I die!” She was serious about this, huh? Well I know the feeling Rachel. I feel like motherhood is my calling, my very purpose in life. How, then, would I be able to live a life without children? When you want something so bad, it is truly hard to accept life without it. Rachel was obviously bitter and angry, as so many infertile women are, but guess what? God remembered her and blessed her! He can do the same for any of us.

Hannah – You can read about Hannah in 1 Samuel 1

“Hannah had no children… and she was in bitterness of soul, and prayed unto the Lord, and wept sore… and she vowed a vow, and said, O Lord of hosts, if thou… wilt give unto thine handmaid a man child, then I will give him unto the Lord all the days of his life…and the Lord remembered her… Hannah had conceived, that she bare a son, and called his name Samuel, saying, Because I have asked him of the Lord.” -1 Samuel Ch. 1

“For this child I prayed; and the Lord hath given me my petition which I asked of him.” 1 Samuel 1:2

Hannah’s Story shows me that prayer DOES prevail. The Bible tells us that Hannah was in “bitterness of soul”. Scripture says that Hannah even refused to eat. Sounds like she was depressed to me. Boy, have I been there before. At one point Hannah decided that she couldn’t bare the weight of her infertility anymore. It was just too hard so she went and prayed. She prayed frantically, so much that the priest even accused her of being drunk! But Hannah was just talking to God. She was so desperate for a son that she made God a promise. She vowed that if He would give her a son, she would give Him right back to the Lord. Now that is desperation, but in it’s most beautiful form. Hannah left that conversation with God feeling renewed. No longer sad. And it wasn’t long before God gave her just what she had asked Him for. Hannah’s story teaches me that when things get too hard to bare, give it to God and He will renew your joy. Too often I try to bare my burdens alone, and I don’t have to.

I find it absolutely amazing the things I have in common with these amazing women. My troubles aren’t new, they are Biblical and my story is as beautiful as Hannah’s and Rachel’s. God loves me just as much.

Parsley Tea for Inducing Menstruation

19 Jul

I was browsing around on BabyCenter (as I do multiple times a day because I’m a bit obsessed) and I stumbled upon a post about using a ginger infusion to induce a period. Curious, I sought the wisdom of Google. I did find some information on the ginger tea, but even more hits on parsley tea.. so I changed my search.

Turns out, parsley is a mild emmenagogue (a fancy word that means it causes the uterus to contract). As a result of uterine contactions, parsley has been known to stimulate the shedding of the lining and induce a due or overdue flow. It is also used to induce a natural abortion, which I am in no way shape or form condoning. In fact, I would recommend that you do NOT try this herbal remedy if there is a chance you may be pregnant.

I am definitely not pregnant as evidenced by a negative HPT and very low BBT readings.

I want to try this remedy because I am impatient lol. I am starting treatment with an RE as soon as I can get this cycle going and if Aunt Flow doesn’t come soon I will have to take Provera. I don’t want to take Provera for 3 reasons: 1. It gives me terrible nightmares, 2. There is the potential of having to wait almost 4 weeks for it to work, and 3. I would be more than thrilled to start on my own and get this show on the road. So I’m giving this parsley thing a go and we will see what happens.

There are two ways to use parsley to induce menstruation:

Way #1: Parsley Tea

To make parsley tea you will need:

1) Parsley – fresh is preferred as it is more potent but dried will also work.

2) Hot, not boiling, water

3) a pot

4) and a pitcher or container

This is very simple people. You really do not need a college degree, but kudos if you do. You are one step ahead.

Put some water in a pot in the stove and heat it up. You want it to be hot not boiling. Boiling water can actually weaken the herbs effects. Don’t ask me how.

While the water is heating toss some Parsley into a pitcher. There is no exact measurement for how much to use. I put roughly a handful of parsley per cup of water. Too much won’t hurt you, but too little may not work. If you are using dried herbs, a tablespoon per cup should suffice.

Now pour the hot water over the Parsley and let it steep for at least 15 minutes. The longer it sits the more potent it will be. When you are ready to drink, just scoop out the herbs with your hand or strain and enjoy. I use the word enjoy lightly because this stuff is horrible!! I liken the taste to a Christmas tree. It tastes like green spice if that makes any sense.

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Drink 3-4 cups per day.
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Way #2: Insert into Vagina

Okay so this method is a little odd. Needless to say, I was reluctant to stuff cooking herbs into my who ha but hey it’s worth a shot I guess.

You should only do this with fresh Parsley. Take a sprig and wash it then push it up in there so that it is touching the cervix. That’s it!

Change the sprigs as you would a tampon; every 8-12 hrs.

So how long will this take to work? Unfortunately the jury is still out. I’ve read anywhere from a couple hours to a week. Keep in mind that it may not work for everyone.

My Experiment

Day 1 – I started drinking the tea at about 6pm. I drank two cups back to back at 6 and another cup before bed so 3 cups total.

I went jogging around 7:30 and while jogging I noticed sharp cramps around my cervix. This lasted for about 5 minutes then went away. Not sure if it was related to the parsley.

Day 2 – I drank 1 cup of tea in the morning and nearly lost my breakfast. Yuck!! I had two more cups after dinner (yuck again). I also inserted some fresh parsley vaginally and left it for about 8 hrs.

So far no spotting, barely crampy, I wonder if this will work?

Day 3 – I decided I just can’t do it anymore. My body is literally rejecting this stuff. When I smell it I want to vomit. Giving up.

Conclusion – Well it didn’t work for me, I started Provera 4 days later when AF never showed. Did it work for you??

Hannah’s Hope

16 Jul

I recently read the book Hannah’s Hope: Seeking God’s Heart in the Midst of Infertility, Miscarriage and Adoption Loss by Jennifer Saake. I must say this book is amazing and life changing. If you are a Christian woman suffering through infertility then this is a book for you! I read through the whole thing in about 3 days simply because I found myself unable to put it down. Every page gave me hope, understanding, and spiritual peace. Mrs. Saake illustrates God’s grace by building on the story of Hannah (1 Samuel, Chapter 1) as well as by sharing her own experiences as an infertile woman. One Word. Amazing! This book taught me so much about God’s love and His perfect timing.

<—Click on the photo for a free preview of Chapter 1!

I Would Die For That (Infertility Song)

13 Jul

What It Feels Like To Be Infertile

13 Jul

If you haven’t had to jump through the hoops of infertility then it may be hard to understand just what I am ranting and raving about. I have had so many women tell me that they feel like they can’t open up to others about their infertility challenges for fear of being misunderstood, belittled, or judged. Infertility is a medical condition which deserves recognition. Contrary to popular belief we won’t get pregnant if we “just relax”. We need medical intervention, medication, and sometimes much, much more. Most of all, we need support.

I can’t speak for everyone, as we are all different, but here is a look inside this Infertile Myrtle’s head.

Infertility makes me feel USELESS. The most basic instinct of being female is the trait of motherhood. We are natural caregivers. Our bodies were carefully created to carry babies, to labor for hours, to nurse, to love. Yet my womb is still empty. If I am unable to fulfill even this natural purpose, then what can I do?

Infertility makes me feel HELPLESS. Human nature is to want to be in control, to be able to influence the things that are happening to us and around us, but infertility takes all control from my hands. I can’t control my body, it obviously has a mind all its own. I can’t control what options are available to me, those decisions are limited to my doctor, my body’s reaction, and my finances. I can’t decide when I will get pregnant (if I ever do) or if my body will carry a baby to term. There is very little that I alone am able to do to increase my chances of becoming a mother. I have virtually no say in any of this and that is a struggle.

Infertility makes me feel JEALOUS. I never thought I could be so envious of someone til I started praying for a child. Now it seems as though every infant is a reminder of what I don’t have. Every mother stands for what I wish I could be. In so many ways my jealousy controls me. It prevents me from spending time with pregnant friends or family members. It causes me to avoid baby showers and children’s birthday parties. It makes me nervous to log in to Facebook in fear I will be bombarded with baby photos and pregnancy announcements. Every time my heart sinks.

Infertility makes me feel ANGRY. In a world full of evil, it is hard to see how God decides to give babies to thieves and drug addicts yet denies my husband and I of the same blessing. I know He has a plan and if I could see the whole picture I would understand, but I can’t and I don’t. As a result I am angry. I become angry every time I watch the news, seeing all the innocent children being abused and neglected. I am angered by teenage mothers, abortion, “accidental pregnancies”. It is my anger that has the most negative effect on me during this journey. I know that if I could just rid myself of the anger this would all be just a little bit easier. I am working on it, but it is far from easy.

Infertility makes me feel ALIENATED. I feel like people are always talking about me; wondering what my diagnosis is, judging me for not taking my infertility as a “sign” that I’m not supposed to be a mother, subconsciously assessing what I am doing wrong. When they choose to talk to me instead, I feel like I am made of glass. Like they are just waiting on me to shatter.

All these emotions are just the tip of the iceberg so to speak. There are so many more feelings beneath the icy surface. There’s the ANXIETY, the sense of being BROKEN, IRREPARABLE. There’s the HOPELESSNESS, the FEAR, the EMBARRASSMENT, the DISAPPOINTMENT, the DEPRESSION.

Most of all, infertility makes me feel SAD. It’s pain and its anguish. It makes you feel like giving up. But how can you when its all you’ve ever wanted?

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